It all started that one fine day
A day that had been marked in my calendar for a while now
A day I knew would change everything, I just didn’t know how
The day I turned thirteen
I was officially a teen,
No longer was I a kid sitting on the side-lines as it had always been
No more restrictions, that in my mind was altogether out of the scene
I finally felt like I could do whatever I wanted, no more routines
But I was so wrong
Fantasy and reality are kept separate for reasons
Those dreams of happiness soon turned to fearful seasons
It’s the hormones, obviously not what I’ve chosen
It’s all their fault, it’s those stupid emotions
But no matter who or what I blamed, every day started leaving me a little bit frozen
An imaginary audience would weave through my thoughts
Make my decisions and aggravate my messes further into knots
I’d create these personal fables in my mind
Turning my uniqueness into isolation, I became blind
And mistakes in my life were all I could find
I am a teenager at the end of the day
But that’s just an excuse, that’s what the previous generations might say
I wished I could be someone else, that’s all I’d pray
But the voices in my head, they screamed for the truth and they just didn’t go away
So there were times I tried to be another,
Where I tried to be perfect in vain
Where I put up a wall and didn’t let my actions speak the words I wanted to say
For if they heard, they’d think I wasn’t sane
But deep in my city of refuge, bricks of hope would fall down again and again
Not knowing, that solitude and lies are not what life wants me to gain
This isn’t just my story
It belongs to countless others, just like me
I’m just the one trying to make you all see
Solving a problem requires you to know the problem, that’s how you set it free
We stare at mirrors at the tears run down
Whispering to ourselves that we cannot drown
Hoping we believe the smile we show instead of the frown
In the process, not realising how our ideals shut down
We’re afraid to take help when we know we need it
For we think about how the judgement will come bit by bit
And how by disheartening mockery we will be hit
Never knowing the benefits of the risk until we manage to take it
And how all these problems we could learn to omit
We laugh when people share their misery
Making them wish their names would already be written down in history
We add insults upon their existing injury
If only we’d realize, we could be the cause of their liberty
We’re not perfect and we’re not always okay
But each adolescent deserves to be happy, that’s what I’m here to say
And as we move on with life, I hope we all find our way.